If only

"...My entire adult life has been one warzone after the other, running from one hiding spot to the next and trying to avoid the bullets in between. Riley understood what it was like to lead such a sad excuse for a life, and he didn’t judge my cynicism, he didn’t question my motives, he only ever kept me from falling apart. He was my only proof that there was a God and Shepherd had wiped that faith out with an unholy vengeance. What kind of god would let that spot of good die?"

From Casualties by A Kiss for A Kill
on FF.net

I was reading this Soap x Ghost fanfiction last night and it broke my heart.